A redacted journal entry

I can’t stand being too far away
From you and all you

My mind and heart are in a three-legged race

Rooting for the heart because the mind won’t give me what’s not good

I rather feel good for a second than think about how it feels without you

But the thought of being briefly ecstatic makes me crave

A happiness that you can’t guarantee

The brain trips up the heart in a split second of doubt

Judgement no longer clouded

Life without you is possible

Life with you is a slow death

Living for a brighter future

Or at least that’s what I tell myself

Erasing everything that makes me weak


You say I’m crazy, cause you don’t think I know what you’ve done

But when you call me ‘baby,’ I know I’m not the only one. – “I’m Not The Only One” Sam Smith

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