Half Truths: The Short Uneventful Story Of How I Almost Successfully Tricked Myself Out Of Feeling Something For You

Lightness and dark

Down versus up

Calmness…

Washes over the beaches of anxiety

Life opens up when you do

Shit, well I guess it’s not opening up

Vulnerability just isn’t my thing

Experiencing openness and real-ness

Being too close

It’s too dangerous

Letting myself feel…

It’s easier being detached

Not missing, caring, and wishing

If more isn’t an option

Then hurt isn’t an option

Tears will never flow

Because heartstrings are never ever tugged

Which is great

It’s wonderful

But…

It’s cowardice 

Its like being afraid of my own shadow

I’m not sure if I’m ready to

Deal with the repercussions of caring

I don’t want to leap  out in front

Can I just decline my heart?

Negate my feelings for you?

Even though every single annoying conversation and every touch makes every nerve ending scream out “I like you”

All while my brain is begging/pleading my heart to  play pretend

4.7.15


So have you got the guts?

Been wondering if your hearts’ still open, and if so I wanna know what time it shuts.

Simmer down and pucker up

I’m sorry to interrupt it’s just I’m constantly on the cusp of trying to Kiss you

—Do I Wanna Know Arctic Monkeys

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