The process of me missing you

 

The avoidance

The denial

The refusal

 

If I don’t think

Life won’t sink

Hopes still soar

 

Dreams don’t crack

My smile never slips

My heart is whole

 

The facade

The facade

Let’s play pretend

 

Happiness…

Exert false happiness

With false sincerity

 

Then maybe I won’t want you near

 

When my mask finally slips

The tears base jump

Life hurts

 

Water soaked pillow

Life gets harder

Lying to myself no longer works

 

Open up

Let in

Feelings

 

Feeling things

Can’t cope

It’s broken

 

Cracked in 3’s

While I’m on my knees

Praying please

 

Don’t let another one leave