Me more than you
I open my veins
The trickle swirls down my arms
Puddling at my feet
The lapse in my judgment
Temporary insanity
I count the number
Of times I let my heart run wild
Lose track of the estimate
My brain clucks its tongue
“I told you so,” it whispers
But how do I know?
How do I know when not to trust
I am an open door, or is it revolving?
Which turns into an open vessel
I become a rest stop
They always travel home after
Never a final destination
All I wanted…
Is to be home
Your light in the dark
But the darkness has clouded me
Murky understandings
Misplaced feelings
I was never with you
It was never you
The idea captured me
Suffocated my brain
The idea just infected my life
Took hold and swallowed me whole
There’s no escape
Standing in a puddle of my failed attempts
I realize
That you weren’t who it’s supposed to be
My journey still struggles on
But the end isn’t in sight
Just more rest stops along the way