The love is palpable
The sexual tension…
Is exciting
This is forbidden
Uncharted territory
Whispers in the dark
Stolen glances
Note passing has me feeling juvenile
Rendezvous changing my outlook
Have me feeling hopeful
That this…This can see the light of day
That this…
This can withstand the test of time
But you have valid reasons
Reasons to remain hidden
To keep us a secret
For our love to always be silent
But…
I have doubts
You kiss them away
But they resurface l
They rear their ugly head
Angd I wonder and worry
Are we really a secret for the “right reasons?”
What are these “right reasons?”
What reason could you possibly have?
You say you love me
Only when you see me
But
We’re never in public together
You say you would never lie
But you evade
You say you need no one else
But you still have other “girl friends“
I don’t want to be her
The girl who nags
The girl who can’t trust
The one who is jealous
And pushes you away
I just want it to be us
Always us
But I know in my heart…
I know something isn’t adding up
My heart, brain, and gut are all screaming
Begging me to listen
Listen to all that he isn’t saying
He says “I love you”
He never says “you’re the only one”
He says “I’m hanging with a friend”
He never says “I’m with another woman”
I don’t want to be crazy
But you…
You aren’t telling me the whole truth
How can there be trust without it
I cry myself to sleep
Trying to convince myself
That you truly do want me
And me alone
But I’ve been lied to over and over and over and over and over
AGAIN
So you can’t belittle my feelings
And tell me I’m emotional
Or that it’s that “time of the month”
FUCK
I just want the truth
Be honest
Keep it 100%
Not 95
That’s not good enough
White lies crack my armor
My eyes are red rimmed
And I’d appreciate some clarity
I’ve been drowning in my tears
Let me know if that was completely uncalled for
Just for once tell me
What you really want