Sisyphean progress
Falsely starting
Never accessing the truth
Odd man out
Odd man out
Pain and suffering
Never the victor
Always the chump
Why do you excel without me?
Yearning for you
Duping myself
Putting myself in a box
Shipping it to you
But no ones home
No one is ever home
You’re never…
I’m happy
But not together
You can come and shake the foundation
Thundering
I crumble every time
I’m only as strong as I was taught
Forever not knowing
Unwanted
Thrown away
Never the one you wanted
We were never good enough
Never could pinpoint why
Faking understanding
Realizing nothing
I don’t know why
Why I care
Ties that bind
Seem to never break
No matter how you hacked it
You must’ve felt something once…
It’s impossible…
Right?
It could never just be…
How could I never know you
How much I wish to
I don’t know who you are
Did she?
How many times did she trust you
Love you
Chances spilled out of her
Chasing her unshed tears
The strength that it took
To fool herself
To fool us
Making herself the only believer
Closed doors never stay shut
Lies don’t turn to true
Death isn’t a cover up
Nothing can Expunge
Smoke billows
Blinding all to you
You charm them
Hook, line, and sinker
Alone in the dark
Shadows over happiness
Maybe it’s a cruel joke on me, whatever
Just means there’s more cake for me, forever, forever
Melanie Martinez
